Metamorpha Questions

Our new sermon series is called Metamorpha - it's all about the change we have to go through in our Christian walk. Paul is preaching 3/4 of the series, so I feel pressured, er, I mean, encouraged to blog about what's going on. (Lol...jk). He posted some questions on Safe Harbor's website, and asked those of us who have a personal blog to answer them. So here goes:

1) Looking back on your life, specifically after salvation, try to recall times where you realized or came to understand something about God that you misunderstood before (i.e. a time when you got a revelation about grace v/s works or about God’s unconditional love for you etc.). Now that you have that thought in your mind, write about it and tell how you came to realize the truth that you misunderstood before (that was when you threw down an altar).

The first real revelation I received about who God is was during my first year in Master's Commission. He revealed himself to me as Father. I had three dads growing up, so this was the initial area God had to break down for me - I was too used to seeing him as legalistic, angry and ready to get me.

2) How did you feel when you finally accepted the true image of God in that area of your life?

I felt more grace than I ever had before.

3) Is there a way that you see God, yourself, your role in His kingdom, etc. that you think God is trying to reveal truth to you in now? What is it? What do you think would help you get the courage to continue to tear that down?

Well, my view of myself is pretty messed up. So that affects everything else - my view of God, of his Church, etc. I'm actually starting counseling in a week for it, so I'm praying that God will use that to really dismantle my thought process about myself, and then I'll be able to see more clearly my place in the Kingdom.

4) Take some time to really be honest with yourself and answer the following question. What do you believe about God that you’re scared to admit to someone?

Sometimes it's really hard for me to believe in heaven. I know what I've been taught, and I know what the word says about our goal after this life, but I struggle with knowing for sure if it's all real or not.