Friday Survey...thanks Rach

Would it hurt seeing someone make out with your ex?
I won't ever see that, in the name of Jesus...

How did you wake up this morning?
Paul getting out of bed to go to the gym.

Do you drink regular or diet sodas?
Diet. But I try not to drink them a lot...they make you bloated!

Where is the biggest scar on your body?
Stomach - gall bladder removal

Would you marry someone you didn't love if paid 10 thousand dollars?
That's not a lot of money... so no.

Do you like cats?
Nope - they're pretty much evil.

Does everyone deserve a second chance?
It depends...

Last time you had pizza?
Tuesday @ Newk's...SO good!

Does the last person who put their arms around you mean anything to you?
He sure does ;)

Honestly, how many people have you completely fallen for in your life?
Well, there's a couple...but Jesus and Paul have taken the cake in that area.

Do you like the smell of gasoline?
No. Ugh.

Do you have any obsessions right now?
To-do lists, working on the house, creating a budget, etc...do I need to keep going?

Have you talked to a complete a**hole today?
Not today...this week, but not today...

Do you regret something you did yesterday?
Hmm...not that I can think of...probably making spaghetti for dinner. I eat too much every time.

Do/did you do good in school?
I did well. I may try it again here soon.

Last text from?
Meg.

What are your plans for this weekend?
Dinner with some peeps tonight, getting my hair did tomorrow, some shopping (some good, some necessary), possibly a show in Southside Sat. night, church on Sunday...and whatever else happens inbetween.

Do you get distracted easily?
Sometimes, yes. But it usually gets on my nerves when people are uber-distracted, so I try to pay as much attention as possible.

Do you love someone at the moment?
I love lots of someones right now.

Have you had braces?
Yes, and they sucked, and my teeth are worse now.

Single or taken?
I'm taken. Completely.

What should you be doing right now?
Working...*sigh*.

Explain why you last threw up?
Cheap alcohol + Super Bowl snack food = bathroom till 2am.

How's this week been?
Tedious...but only at work. Everything else has been fine.

Do you miss someone?
Yep - my sister! Cause I just got one in May...

Do you think you can last in a relationship for three months?
I tried that already - I like lifetime better.

Will you be in a relationship in 2 weeks?
I certainly hope so.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
YES...I have numerous ideas...

Where are you going to be at 4pm tomorrow?
Don't really know...hopefully at home.

Can you get jealous?
Most certainly.

Favorite color(s)?
Green, brown

Favorite fruit?
Strawberries and blueberries

Has someone of the opposite sex ever told you they liked you?
Sure...

Do you drink bottled water?
Yes, but I'm trying to cut back...you know, the environment and all...

Tears are falling from your eyes, what's the reason?
Probably Jesus

How many hours did you sleep for last night?
9ish

Have you ever in any way been betrayed by someone you trust?
Of course.

Are you a morning person or a night person?
Eh...it depends on how much sleep I get.

Do you trust all of your friends?
All of my close friends, yes. Aquaintances, maybe not.

God loves me too much to leave me the way I am

So...this has been a hard week, and it's only Wednesday. I have spent the last two days going through a whole range of emotions, and attempting to understand why God allows things to happen certain ways. I've been crying out for some sort of answer to all of this, and have felt as if God is silent. But I realized something today...partially because of what Meg posted today. I read these words from Beth Moore's story:

"I learned something about God that day. He knows if you're exhausted, you're hungry, you're serving in the wrong place or it is time to move on but you feel too responsible to budge. He knows if you're hurting or feeling rejected. He knows if you're sick or drowning under a wave of temptation. Or He knows if you just need your hair brushed. He sees you as an individual. Tell Him your need!" (emphasis mine)

Dang.

And as I sat here in my cubicle, shedding tears for the millionth time in four days, I just had to thank God for everything... For not getting the job. For healing Dave (YESSSS!!!!). For giving me a husband who is not only supportive of me, but petitions Him on my behalf. And regardless of how I may feel, I have to remember (with whatever amount of logic I can muster) that God is FAITHFUL. I have repeated that so many times this week, and yet, it has hit me anew just now. I know He will provide, whether it be with a new job, extra money for our bills, amazingly Spirit-filled experiences at church, awesome friends, families that love us, etc. etc. etc.

And I'm thankful that He gives us time to get over ourselves. :)

Well...

In case you didn't get the email, I didn't get the job. :(

Blargh

I'm right there with you, Rach. Me and blogging haven't been friends as of late, and I don't even know why. I guess it's mainly because I have a ton of stuff going on, and blogging is by far my last priority. But I enjoy it...*sigh*.

So this has already been a super long week, and it's only Thursday. I love the fact that my brother (Jim) and his youth group are in town, but it's kinda taking over our week. Because it's a good thing, I'm trying really hard not to get stressed out about it, but it's not working very well. I was awake for more than 17 hours yesterday. Seriously? *Sigh AGAIN*. And the weekend is going to be pretty much the same. Although, it's filled with good things, so once again, I'm trying. Last night was actually really great. Paul and I got to have dinner with the group at Jim 'N Nick's in Southside, and we got to see my brother in his element. We had "group time" after dinner where he was asking them about their expectations - of the trip, of themselves, of God, etc. All of the kids participated, and you can tell that some of them are really thinking about things. After we got to pray for them, Jim told them to say goodbye to us, and a whole group of girls came over to hug me. (Sniff, sniff...) I dislike highschoolers because they're stupid, but this was awesome.

Tomorrow I'm working 6-3, and then going to Sam's Club to shop for food. Have I mentioned yet that I'm feeding 20 or more people on Sunday? Yeah. That's a lot of food. And then we're getting up early on Saturday to go white water (is that supposed to be one word?) rafting with the kiddies. That will be an all-day adventure as well. Then a packed out church service on Sunday, and lunch. It's going to be good, but I may just pass out on Sunday night. You can just imagine what my to-do list looks like this week...lol...

Anyway - random bits - I still haven't heard anything about the job (hopefully either tomorrow or Monday); Paramore is an amazing band and they write amazing songs, and I cannot get them out of my head; I miss my girls!; pray for the Lain's!

#75!

I'm such a loser for being excited about 75 posts, but whatever. It's just a new list, kiddos...nothing too exciting. :)

• I realized yesterday that I like bullets way better than numbers.
• I interviewed for a new position at my company yesterday. If it happens, it would be, like, super good. We may find out by the end of next week, or the beginning of the following week. We'll see...
• Paul was gone last night for the men's prayer retreat, and although I'm happy that he's there, I'm not happy because I didn't sleep well at all. *Sigh* I guess that's what happens when you're so used to having someone else in bed with you.
• I'm so thankful that today is the last work day this week. Props to the men who fought for our independence! We thank you!
• The addiction has caught up with me again...needing another tattoo...
• I'm actually getting my hair dyed tomorrow. And cut. Both by Lindsie. It has been way too long, and although I'm not getting anything funky done, it's still going to be better than doing it myself out of a box. I miss having fun hair... :(
• I'm seriously considering going to school...online, but still, it's school. It's kinda scary to think about, but I feel like it's something I need to do, even if it's just for an associate's degree in something. Am I weird for that?
• Speaking of school, Paul seriously only has about a year left. 7 classes. Do you know how amazing this is? He's literally been working on a bachelor's degree since 1999...I think. And now he'll have it in something he truly enjoys, and that will get him somewhere eventually - a degree in Christian Ministry. It's about as vague as you can get, so it works for us. Lol...
• I preached at our church two Sundays ago. You can hear it here if you would like to. I'm actually kinda proud of it because I really spoke from my heart, and not just because Dave titled it that. LOL.
• My brother is bringing his youth group down to the good ol' south on Saturday. They'll be in Nashville Sat. overnight to Sun., and will then drive to the Ham. They'll be here all week working with a group called Mission Serve, and we will get to hang out with them a bit, including white water rafting on the Ocoee next Sat. Should be interesting. They'll also be at church on the 13th.

Alrighty kids, I think that's good for now. Must get into the shower and head to my super awesome job. *Sigh*